Thursday, July 16, 2009

A whole lot of words






Dear Diary,

My little sister is having her baby as we speak and I am stuck at work. Don't get me wrong, I am super grateful for the steady job I enjoy but I really don't want to be here. *Sigh*

I am having a rough morning (I guess afternoon now) and I wish I was in bed. I heard my alarm go off and instead of pushing snooze I just turned it off. i was 15 minutes late and un-showered to work. Yes, I could have slept for 4 days straight if my life would let me. I ask myself, why am I so tired? Why am I exhausted after such a low effort low yield day? Everyone keeps saying "well you are prego Mimi".. but it seems like that just isn't a good reason, I don't know why. My head just doesn't wrap around it. I forget I am supposed to take things easy. It is hard to do that in my family. John picks up so much slack. I think he is going to have a stress induced coma when all of our house stuff is done.
Speaking of our house. It is official, we signed papers and got keys. I am now a resident of Sandy UT. The funny thing is we can't even move in yet because we are ripping out and putting things in still so I get to have a whole month of packing :) At least it will be good when we move in. The house has a really nice personality, I can't wait to post some pictures. I wish we had more $$$$$ right now so I can make it my dream house but I understand that it will get done eventually.
I am full of gratitude for what I have. Especially my family. I am so glad I have the support of my parents and husband and little boy. Last time Kelton left to go to his momma Tricia's house he asked if "little sister" was going to miss him. (then he answered in his little voice "yes") :)
Kelton has grown so much! He is up two shoe sizes! crazy how fast stuff goes by. One thing this house has brought me is a sigh of relief knowing that Kelton is going to have consistent school and neighborhood from now on... it is my silver lining on my stressful situation.

love, Mimi