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Dear Diary,

My little sister is having her baby as we speak and I am stuck at work. Don't get me wrong, I am super grateful for the steady job I enjoy but I really don't want to be here. *Sigh*

I am having a rough morning (I guess afternoon now) and I wish I was in bed. I heard my alarm go off and instead of pushing snooze I just turned it off. i was 15 minutes late and un-showered to work. Yes, I could have slept for 4 days straight if my life would let me. I ask myself, why am I so tired? Why am I exhausted after such a low effort low yield day? Everyone keeps saying "well you are prego Mimi".. but it seems like that just isn't a good reason, I don't know why. My head just doesn't wrap around it. I forget I am supposed to take things easy. It is hard to do that in my family. John picks up so much slack. I think he is going to have a stress induced coma when all of our house stuff is done.
Speaking of our house. It is official, we signed papers and got keys. I am now a resident of Sandy UT. The funny thing is we can't even move in yet because we are ripping out and putting things in still so I get to have a whole month of packing :) At least it will be good when we move in. The house has a really nice personality, I can't wait to post some pictures. I wish we had more $$$$$ right now so I can make it my dream house but I understand that it will get done eventually.
I am full of gratitude for what I have. Especially my family. I am so glad I have the support of my parents and husband and little boy. Last time Kelton left to go to his momma Tricia's house he asked if "little sister" was going to miss him. (then he answered in his little voice "yes") :)
Kelton has grown so much! He is up two shoe sizes! crazy how fast stuff goes by. One thing this house has brought me is a sigh of relief knowing that Kelton is going to have consistent school and neighborhood from now on... it is my silver lining on my stressful situation.

love, Mimi

Houses, moms and getting over it

Well, the last couple of weeks have been interesting. Being prego kind of amplifies it all. John and I decided we are buying a house this year and this week we actually put an offer in on one. I am not going to lie, this scares the crap out of me. I am way excited but sooo nervous *eep!*. It kind of keeps me up at night and I am having a rough time not wasting my time worrying about it. Sometimes I just have to stop and breath.
Kelton and I have grown closer over the last 6 months. I really love he is our son. We have a schedule and habits now that work pretty seamless. Tricia (Kelton's birth mom) has been on a crazy schedule for the last while so she hasn't been able to take him as much. To be honest I really have liked spending more time with the Keltron. It is seems hard lately for me because Tricia is making some life changes that include spending more time with our son. It makes me happy for Kelton so he can experience his other Mom more but is kind of messing me up. I feel like being selfish and saying, "NO! you snooze you loose!" but, then I remember my vision for this family is unity and communication and stuff. I really am glad Kelton gets to experience both houses more often, it is a part of what makes him who he is. I have notice being Prego makes me WAY more territorial and less willing to take risks. I guess this is just something else I get to look at and let go of. It just doesn't work for me. I don't know why it should bother me that I get to have more one on one time with my hubby before our baby comes. In fact I am going to be more okay with it from this point on. It doesn't mean I don't miss Mr. Kelton still.
Anyway, on with my life :)
-Mimi