not so cleanse

So on the night of day 4 on my cleanse I started getting really sick so I started weening myself back onto solid food. I am glad I started then because the next day I woke up with the worst flu EVER! I was bed ridden all Sunday. It is a good thing my Honey takes such good care of me or I think I might have dies. Kelton went and got me some flowers (which was super cute) and John just took care of everything while I healed. Monday I was still sick but not nearly as bad and I went and camped at my Mom's house during the day and chilled out. It is a pretty good thing that I listened to my body, even though it was screaming at me. :(

I am feeling much better today though I am still sniffily.

And i am soooo excited because this weekend I am going to NY to finally meet Piper :)

Cleansing again

I like to do the Lemonade Master Cleanse at least once a year to clean out my body and kick start my metabolism. And lately I have been a slacker about the gym and eating and I can feel the ikkyness backing up in my body. So I am doing it twice this year to keep my healthy momentum going.
I am on day 3 so from here on out it should be down hill, only 6 days to go (whoa that means I am 1/3 done). But last night I dreamed about a spicy chicken sandwich, and I haven't eaten meat for years. The day before, I printed out the recipe from our D.V.Breinholt Family Newsletter on how to make Cinnabon cinnamon rolls so I can make them in 2 weeks.
Why am I so attached to food? I get, yeah I need it to live, nutrients and stuff but why is so comforting to think about a gooey cinnamon roll? Why isn't it comforting to chew on celery instead? At least I can drink blessed boring Mint tea. I am glad for this experience so I am can reorient myself in my beliefs I have about food.
I AM HEALTHY AND FIT. I wanna have a baby and bounce back Reagan style. I wanna prevent any aliments that I can't come back from when I am older.
It is funny how I know that A LOT of my physical healthy has to do with my mental healthy. I am whole and happy and moving forward.

Today is a good day.

KELTON'S 4TH BIRTHDAY

Kelton wanted a Curious George birthday, so we gave him one :)
For his birthday dinner he asked for Hot dogs and Curly fries, and I picked up some Capri Suns to sip on. I was a lot of fun opening presents and eating cake and Ice Cream. I made Kelton a Curious George cake and when I started cutting into pieces he started saying,"Owww owwwooowww, that hurts oww!" it was pretty dang cute.

Good Morning!

Today is going to be good and I am pretty excited for it!

“On a bad day, I have mood swings - but on a good day, I have the whole mood playground” -Charles Rosenblum

Everything is perfect, just how it is. Here is me moving forward today and enjoying every second of it, no matter what it is :)
I am smiling, and so can you if you want.

Love, Mimi

PostScript: It is Kelton's birthday today and I am going to make him a Curious George cake

Piper Jane

I am privileged to have a sweet niece named piper Jane. PJ lives in NY. My brother Jake and his wifey Reagan are some pretty awesome people. Piper is about over a year old and she is learning how to breath by herself. I am so excited because of all of the progress she has made the last couple of months. It moves me to think about how strong she is and that it seems she conciously chooses to be here. Piper is one of my teachers. I love her :) I love how her personality is showing and she shares it. Though I an in Utah and she is in NY I hope she knows I love her. And I am proud of jake and Reg too :)

Me, Kelton and a football game.

I had so much fun last night with my Dad, Kelton, and John at the UofU vs. Oregon State football game. Not only is Utah 6-0 now in the season but it was neck to neck win that had my inner child screaming!
Kelton did pretty well for being 4. First we were amazed by the "Pride of Utah" marching band, then when the game stared we practiced jumping up and clapping at the right time. After the first couple exciting things, John and I realized that Kelton would rather stand and clap himself then be held up so he could see. 2nd quarter Kelton busted out the dinosaurs we brought in his "back-up bag" and did a pretty good job at not whacking the guy sitting in front of him. During the first half He informed me "You and Dad are yelling loud in my ears!!". Halftime was pretty awesome because Kelton could see the field and it we could talk. We practiced identifying the "Alphabets" on my shirt, 'U' 'T' 'A' 'H'. After 15 minutes of practice and trying to convince me that 'H' was an 'R', Kelton could recognized each letter when I pointed it, even when I did it out of order. "U-T-A-H is Utah Mom!", "GO, Utes!" that was 70% of what come out of Kelton's mouth until the last part of the 3rd Quarter. He started to get fidgety and until one of the Fight songs that says "U, T, A, H, U-T-A-H, FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!" came on. His eyes got wide and he starts reciting the letters with a huge smile clapping, sooo freaking cute!
After that I took him on a "get the wiggles out" walk. We picked up a couple of temporary tattoos for our faces and Ice cream bars. During the last part of 4th quarter the little guy got tuckered out which was nice because I REALLY wanted to watch the game. John was nice enough to hold him so he could see what was going on. Utah Offense decided to start playing the last 5 minutes and the game ended how you want all games to end, neck to neck with a smashing end almost going into OT.
Thanks to my Dad for taking us to the game, it was AWESOME!!
-p.s. Kelton wanted to wear his "'U' for Utah Utes" face tattoo to Daycare this morning so I let him.

inside my own world

It is humorous to think about how inside my world I am. It is like everything I see or do has a custom filter I made for it.
I am having a hard time trusting myself because I am not so happy with what I see when I take a few steps back and see where I am at. I could make a list of things I don't like or things that are bugging me or where I am procrastinating, I don't think that would serve me at all though.
This is me energetically screaming about what is right now. Much good that did me right?

New moment.
I get to chill out. I honestly have a really awesome life. And a really awesome family. It is funny how hard it seems to get out of my funk today.

I am going to update on what I have been up to.
Personally I have been growing with my design business. I am almost complete with a portfolio. Kelton is doing so good. He is turning 4 next month and he amazes me everyday with how awesome he is. I bought him Candy Land recently and we played it multiple times yesterday. I used to love that game so much and now it is SOOO fun playing with Kel because I enjoy watching him count and match colors. He wants to be Samuri Jack for Halloween so I have got to get on making his costume soon before he changes his mind. John is doing good also. He is wrapped up in some business venture or another everyday it seems and still makes time between meetings to make me feel special. Peaches are in season in UT and I have been making some mean-licious peach pies. I should probably take one to my dad because he digs pie so much.
I have maintained the weight I lost earlier this year but I am not loosing more it seems. I wonder why I have seemed to plateau. I know I haven't been making an extra effort so I guess it is time. I am going to the gym today after work. Tonight I will sit down and set some frequency goals with my exercising. It is weird because ever since my bike crash I haven't want to use my bike to go to work. I think i need to get over that. Also I know I can adjust my food intake. It seems like every 6 months my metabolism slows down again. Maybe i get to do the Cleanse again to jump start it.
I am struggling with being a renter instead of an owner. Since the market is so "awesome" currently, houses are cheap! The only problem is the credit unions want 10-25% down now instead of 0-3% like it was earlier this year. I guess it is a good thing because the nation will get back on its feet eventually, considering some people should of had to put 10-25% and didn't. Oh well now is a better time to start saving then never, right?
Lately, I have been pondering about life and death and how sad I am that people die. My uncle Reb is so sick and fighting cancer and it just makes my heart hurt. Thinking about friends and Grandparents that have gone is a big reality check. My Grandpa Breinholt is 90 years old and I feel lucky my son can hang out with him. Thinking about how my own parents are getting older is frighting to me. My Mom called me the other day about some details they are arranging in their Will and it gave me super anxiety to think they they one day will die. The biggest heart stopper at all is to think that I will ever wake up and John won't be there. It makes me tear up just thinking about it. I believe I am connected to him forever but it still isn't a nice thought to think that we will one day leave these bodies and this life. I remind myself to make sure not to take John for grated. If we ever fight the thing that really brings be back to logic and sanity is how awful it would be if fighting were the last thing I got to experience on this earth with John. I love him so much. I know there is way things get to be and I can except that, I am glad I am only in my 24th year of life because that means I have a lot more to learn, experience, and hopefully, come to understand. Everything is going to be okay.